Sick and Tired

So last night I was giving Dave the middle of the night feeding; this is usually around 3 to 5 am. That way I'd be able to sleep from about midnight hopefully until about 6 or 7. But at 3:00 I woke up and had an upset stomach. SO I told Dave, never mind, I'd just feed her at 3:30 since I was awake anyway. Dave was a trooper and he got up with me anyway. I told him I didn't feel well, almost like I was going to throw up. I used the bathroom and there was some scary diarrhea. Remember, I'm still taking a stool softener, so that didn't help anything.But I fed her and when I was done went back to bed.

It's funny, when you're sick how at first you think "I don't want to be sick, I hope I don't throw up", then you feel awful and think, "maybe I"ll feel better if I throw up", then it turns into "I need to throw up, I feel so terrible. I couldn't sleep and at 4:30 got up and puked. I was glad for it by then because I felt so yucky. The diarrhea continued and the puking and I was getting really worried about whether or not I should feed Charlotte. It is one thing for me to be sick and miserable, but my tiny 3 week old baby?? Dave again got up with me for the 5:30 feeding and we called the pediatrician to ask if I should still breastfeed. She said, yes, it was okay, but make sure wash my hands and nipples because the sickness won't go through the breastmilk, but it will go still be transmitted through spit and the usualy methods.

I'm used to getting little sleep, but last night, I got NONE! I was up to vomit or poop or feed, or all three, all night long. I had a terrible fever, but couldn't keep anything down, including Ibuprofen. I had Dave make some jello and I kept breastfeeding since I was awake and couldn't sleep. I fed her around 11:30 and asked Dave to use the bottle on the next feeding so that I could rest. I finally had some jello at about 1:30 and kept it down so I took some ibuprofen and my fever broke. I woke up at 2:50 drenched in sweat, I was in bed in my flannel jammies and my robe, just shivering until then. SO I got up to wash the vomit out of my hair and wash the sweat off, and I feel much better now.

Nothing like sickness helps you to appreciate health! I feel so weak since I usually drink about 4 liters of water a day, and today I had a glass or two and a bowl of jello. I ate some soup at 3 and I"m working on replenishing my fluids.

Little Charlotte is blessedly unaffected by whatever this sickness was. But I was totally out of commission. I had this list of things I wanted to do today (including get a christmas tree) but I'll be happy to just keep making it through the day without puking more. I'm so lucky Dave was already home today...I don't think I could've taken care of Charlotte and me in that condition.

Do yourself a favor and just stop and feel thankful for your health- whether you're tired or have a cold, or whatever, at least you aren't emptying the entire contents of your body into the toilet. That is something to be thankful for.